Monday, July 25, 2005
ppl have been asking me what happened. did i get ditch? is there this girl that i like? well, all the speculations are wrong. maybe its the way i put it but truth is, some ger told me she like me and when i did not reciprocate, she said she will wait till i change my mind. just a few weeks later she got attached to another guy. im not bitter or anything. just amazed at how fast a person can fall in and out of 'love' so quickly. maybe it was just a crush afterall...
i slept through every single lecture today. then again i only had 2 lectures today. however it was different from other days. i woke up still feeling so tired and body aching all over. must have been the lack of sleep on sunday (woke up at 615 for the comp) coupled with the physical exertion . try as i might to keep awake, i couldnt last more than 15 mins :( . i still played tennis after class today. really dont know my limits...gonna have a long hard day at school again tmr.
there's this tertiary beach volleyball competition in august. going to find ppl to take part again. hopefully it will be better this time round :) .
thoughts running wild10:53 PM
Sunday, July 24, 2005
took part in the quiksilver student 4 on 4 volleyball competition today. i originally had high hopes of getting into the quarter finals but it turned out to be a disaster. played 5 matches against relatively weak teams. dun ask me how many we've won. everyone was not themselves today. is it really nyp's curse that we always cannot perform well in competition? once in the competitive setting, we failed to do all the things we are capable of doing. but overall i am quite okay with my performance. not that i was brilliant but at least i think i played close to my potential. however i think my desire to win affected the team morale quite badly...but i was really very disappointed. sorry guys. stayed behind to play more volleyball and to watch the final. played this 2 on 2 with ruoci. enjoyed myself thoroughly...she keep giving me nice sets to spike =) .
another week of school again. getting the monday blues already. and no more beach volleyball to curb my withdrawal symptoms this coming weekend as im going to bangkok. im not sure im going to enjoy myself there coz im so broke. this week gotta scrimp and save liao. more abt the trip when i come back :) .
thoughts running wild10:09 PM
Friday, July 22, 2005
blogging again after a long break but its not going to be a nice post. if there is something i did wrong, by all means tell it to my face. shout at me, scold me or even fuck me if u have to. at least i'll be able to explain myself if its a misunderstanding or apologize if its my mistake. dont go and publicly announce it where i cant defend myself. when i said all those things abt u did i do it behind ur back? so shouldnt u return me the favour?
its really amazing how fast ppl change. one moment they can say how much they like you and they are willing to wait for u and what not. few weeks later they found the one guy for them and their attitude changes. nevertheless im happy for her.
the irony of love...*shakes head*
thoughts running wild1:46 AM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
its the first day of school! there's like a major reshuffle of cliques. even my original clique (of one year) is now gone. i dont even know where i belong anymore. but that's okay, im not in the stage where im still looking for acceptance from my peers. and i frequently mixed around with the other cliques. however im worried for 3 of my friends. they have made themselves quite the eyesore in our course. they do have some attitude problem regarding certain matters (which even i cant stand) but they are great friends. but i think they dont even care. thats the problem. they havent been coming for classes regularly before and im worried that their attendance might worsen if they lose their motivation further to come to school.
played tennis with my senior and her colleagues in school today. exhausted from playing almost 5 hours of non-stop tennis. was keen to play tennis again after reading the prince of tennis comics and my skills improved once again. i can approach the ball better and faster now which led to longer rallies and more smashs =) .
going to attend the IOC seminar tomorrow afternoon. david beckham will be there. im still skeptical whether is it worth it to sit for a 4 hour seminar just to see him and there will be no autographs and photographs watsoever. too late to cancel my place so i will have to miss my lessons to go tomorrow. alrite then make the best of the situation!
thoughts running wild12:02 AM
