Friday, April 20, 2007
tonight was the night i enjoyed myself most after so long. talking with the staff, playing the dice bluff game and cards, unlimited drinks, singing and talking with friends. havent laugh so much since. had a meaningful talk with someone tat build up my self esteem once again. i felt so much better. realised that there are still many people with expectations of me and i cant let them down.
after talking with a few people today, i've realised a few things. i've seen through friends that i had treasured before. finally saw who my true friends are after this 3 years. but i cant blame them either as they have their own reasons. and there are things tat are worth it and things tat are not. found back my direction in life. to do my best as a radiographer and work hard to repay my parents. to enjoy life while i can and live life to the fullest. haha tink everyone always say this after a breakup. but this was what i was already trying to do before i got attached. felt rejuvenated once again. our memories will forever be kept in a special corner of my heart. may you find happiness :)
tonight will be the night i tink i can finally sleep well. have been sleeping at 6 plus the past few days and finding myself waking up at 10 in the morning and unable to sleep again. tmr will be a new chapter of my life :)
thoughts running wild3:51 AM