Life is beautiful

2007-09-18T01:25:00.000-07:00

went to this restaurant called pasta de waraku at marina square with belle today. tink they have a branch at central mall at clarke quay also. the food there is really value for money. they categorize themselves as a japanese casual pasta and cafe restaurant but their pasta is anything but casual. they have a very wide variety of pastas, from spaghetti to gratin to pizza. one look at the display outside the restaurant and u'll agree. din take photos of the actual food we tried so just bear with the displays.

the display outside the restaurant

japanese seafood milestrone soup - $8.80

beef and vegetable spaghetti in tomota cream sauce - $14.80

scallop and mentai gratin - $12.80

also ordered a fried salmon cheese ($8.80) and chocolate banana crepe ice-cream ($9.80) tats not on display.

here's my rating :)
ambience: 6/10
Taste: 8/10
Value: 8.5/10

the place is a bit noisy as the waitering staff will just shout orders and greet customers here and there. slightly made up for it with its simple and clean decor.

the food is the highlight here. the beef and vegetable fettuccine in tomato cream sauce was good. its like tomato sauce mixed with the cream sauce in carbonara. the gravy made the springy fettuccine taste so gd. just when i was pleasantly surprised by the quality of the food after the milestrone soup and the tomato cream fettuccine, i tried the scallop gratin. the baked scallops were so good i smiled when i put it in my mouth. it just melts in your mouth after u get past the distinctive crusty surface. beneath the scallops was maccaroni in their yummy cream sauce once again.

for the price i mentioned above, pasta de waraku is definately value for money. not quite the place for a romantic weekend dinner but its the perfect place for a nice affordable weekday dinner to reward urself after a hard day at work.

2007-09-13T01:02:00.000-07:00

been really too busy and tired to blog. anyway the biggest news that happened in my life is tat me and isabelle are finally together on 050907!! asked her over dinner at sakura and she agreed...so happy :). thanks to marvin for ur help too...was still tinking if i can carry off the stunt and such a coincidence to see u there too. really like this pic of us :)

this was taken b4 we were together...already sweetly in love? haha :p

2007-08-24T12:19:00.000-07:00

fell sick on mon night. had a slight toothache the whole day but it got worse as i was sleeping during the night. couldnt sleep at all and i developed a fever along with the toothache. woke up feeling better on tuesday morning so i went to work. however i was feeling very tired and weak from not sleeping and the fever. managed to survive the day and dragged myself home. took my temperature when i reached home and its 38. i was so tired i fell asleep without eating dinner till 10pm. when i woke up, my temp was already 38.5. decided that i wont be able to last the next day so i went to take a mc. really hate falling sick. it really throws me off my already very tight schedule. haven get any running under my belt for my ippt next month. cant afford to fail...no time for remedial training.

fireworks last sat was sublime. it was so nice to be sitting at the floating platform gallery away from the crowd and have a frontal view of the fireworks. the company from china managed to put up a fascinating show. i felt it was even better than the few shows i saw last year. maybe it was because of the good view. maybe it was because of the music. much thanks to belle for getting the tics :). shall post the videos and photos up soon. meantime watch this video i uploaded on youtube :)

2007-08-17T00:23:00.000-07:00

Follow the notes upon a Journey

At first sight marks one's destiny

once the voyage comes to an end

Return lies within hasty keys

2007-08-12T23:36:00.000-07:00

belle took somepictures of me at golf today :)

the set up. this is not a proper one...belle took it b4 i finish adjusting ;)

the swing

and the follow through

golf was fun today. had trouble adjusting at first but managed to improve. with the proper technique i can hit slightly further now. still need more refinement so i can do tat more consistently.

looking forward to every weekend :) . yay i got tics to next sat fireworks celebration at the floating platform!

2007-08-06T23:59:00.000-07:00

went to this restaurant ma maison at bugis junction recently. its located on the 2nd floor of parco where most of the restaurants are. ma maison means "my home" in french and its efforts to make the place cosy are obvious. the decor is very cottage like...probably like northern france. the lighting is perfect. the food here is one of a fusion between japanese and french. heard many ppl mentioned that the food here is mediocre but i beg to differ. not tat the food here is heavenly but there are a few nice dishes. one of the appetiser to try is the escargots. its chewy and juicy and taste gd with the right amount of butter. forgot to take any picture of this dish though.

the hamburger steak is one of the nice main course to try. try it either the normal way or in japanese sauce like we did. the japanese sauce taste rather unique and complements the soft hamburger steak well. why did i take photo of the steak only when its half eaten? coz i took some time to figure out how to use belle's camera in low light condition ;) .

squid ink spaghetti. one of the taboo thing to eat during a date...haha. but the squid ink spaghette at ma maison is worth staining ur teeth black during the date. the texture and taste are just right. once again its half eaten...hee.

hopefully can see the decor of the place in this photo. really like the ambience of the place. guess what im holding in my hand?

a brass key with our table no on it. you'll have to bring this to the cashier during payment. speaking of which, the above cost 70+ with 2 glasses of sparking wine. reasonable enough. other things to try are beef straganov rice, prawns and scallops gratin and carbonara. do give it a visit sometime :)

2007-07-30T23:50:00.000-07:00

my internet was down for a few days and i only found the time to sit down and call the technical helpline yesterday nite. feel kinda handicapped without a internet connection.

anyway i had a very packed weekend but somehow dun feel tired at all. went to mos/clinic after work on friday. first time using my cannery card since getting it. feels gd not to queue or pay any cover charges. and luckily so. the cover charge for clinic is $15 and it is really quite small and boring inside. we left after touring one round of the place.

went to kok keng's gig on sat after tennis in the morning. haven get to see him perform before and i liked the idea of an underground rock concert so decided to go down. they are really gd. they even have a couple of self composed songs tat i liked. just that the vocals got drowned out by the loud instruments at times. went to queensway with belle to get her specs and contact lens after tat. watched a mindless thriller on sat too. theres nothing redeeming abt Vacancy at all; there are too many loopholes in the plot. but still somebody was scared stiff :p .

played golf again yesterday! this time i din give up after missing the ball for a few times. finally was able to hit the ball over some distance consistently. got proper coaching from belle's uncle after trying a while on my own. hopefully i will get better after practising my swing at home this week :)

had dinner at a nice restaurant ma maison last week. shall give a short review and post pics soon :)

2007-07-18T23:30:00.000-07:00

went for my basic cardiac life support course today. im a certified CPR personnel once again. not tat anyone would wish for me to perform cpr on them though...haha. the course was quite fun. not the lesson itself, but the company i went with. had a gd time catching up with my seniors...all of them are now doing advanced imaging...so envious. turned out tat one of my seniors is not tat dao after all. she was rather dao to me when i was a student. however yest she came to my dept to help out as there was an overwhelming number of patients. we were clearing the cases damn fast and having fun doing tat as well. she even came back early from lunch so tat i can go for mine earlier...so nice of her. speaking of which, the number of patients yest was really terrifying. it was the most i've ever seen in my 2 months of full time work and many weeks of attachment. no staff went for lunch till after 1pm when normally we will start rotating ard 1130. despite our efforts, some patients just take their anger out on us. rather demoralising.

i really dunno how u feel...so confused...shall not expect anything anymore.

realised i looked like a drug addict in the previous picture. so freaking pale. i need the sun!

2007-07-16T00:17:00.000-07:00

tried to play golf today...haha. couldnt even hit the ball. so embarassing. but i told myself i will be better than my fren soon :p. bought a new tennis racket last week...a head nano titanium s4 for $159. i have no complains abt the racket...really worth the money. so happy to finally able to get my own racket after so long...even though its not top of the line. been playing tennis quite frequently and will continue to do so.

i am happy~ :)

2007-07-08T04:22:00.000-07:00

its been some time since i blogged. life has been gd recently. was in ot tis week and it has been smooth sailing. the first day on my own after two days of training went well. will be in ot again next week. kinda used to office hours now...dunno how will i adapt when i start shift.

transformers was better than the good old days. watched it on the first day it opened. those of u who havent watch it yet go book the next available tics. had to rush thru a nice dinner before the movie coz i was late :(

the dinner tat i had to rush thru. but we still managed to finish the food :P

went sentosa again last sat. but this time its not to play beach vball. went to play the sentosa luge again, watched the songs of the sea and cafe del mar. this time i din brake at all and its so much more fun trying to avoid ppl on the way. my luge almost overturned...haha.

the power of panasonic's optical image stabiliser. this was taken on a moving tram :p

songs of the sea was wonderful. for those of u who dunno, its sort of like the new musical fountain. the effects are spectacular. islander rate is only $4!

fireworks from songs of the sea

cafe del mar is quite beautiful at night. only been there once in the afternoon so tis time went there for dinner and some after dinner drinks. the food there is not worth the money. or maybe its just the grilled chicken and seabass. its 28+++ for a small portion of average food. maybe its the ambience ba...but i wonder y is the drinks so affordable then...haha. there was this grp of every conspicuous guys touching each other's butts and groins in the pool. one even bared his butt. almost everyone was looking at them...haha.

nice ambience at cafe del mar =)

2007-06-25T23:08:00.000-07:00

collecting the graduation gown on sat totally threw me off my plans. forgot abt the gown until fri and therefore i had to collect it on sat. cancelled my sentosa sat once again. i tink the whole idea of the graduation gown is rather useless. wats the gown without a mortar board? tink its rather pointless to go to so much trouble for a diploma graduation. still have to waste $30 on tat gown.

the 2 days hospital orientation came to an end today. really din regret my choice to join my hospital. it has a rich tradition and remains one of the public flagship hospitals and is the future academic hospital with the upcoming duke-nus graduate medical school. went shopping at queensway after my orientation since we were already in bukit merah for the orientation. bought a nice shirt and had a nice chat over dinner in ikea. loved the cheap and tasty swedish meatballs :)

finally got my first full pay...but got to return quite a big sum of money to my parents for the first few months...left with so little for myself. got to scrimp on some areas liao...sian

2007-06-19T20:48:00.000-07:00

wanted to go sentosa on sat but it rained so ended up playing mahjong again. had very bad luck and got bao 2 times. one was for discarding a new tile towards the end when i only had all new tiles and the other was for discarding a wind with tai. managed to minimise my loss to only $16.

went to a nightclub on sun. yes...those nightclubs that u can call gers...haha :p. but i went in the afternoon. got intro to this nightclub by a fren. they actually open their ktv rooms like those normal ktv for people who just want to sing on sat and sun afternoon. paid just $11 to sing from 2pm to 7pm and a drink. they have all the new songs, sofa seats are very comfortable and the sound system is not bad. highly recommended! the nightclub is dynasty classic at peace centre.

working in fluoro is fun. its interesting to work with different radiologists and adapt to them. but im getting a bit of backache from wearing the lead apron and bending forward even after trying my best to take care of my back. kinda like working life now...time passes very fast everyday and soon its the weekend again which i can enjoy thoroughly without any worries.

ps: peipei in bingo pool is rather pretty and cute...catch her on chn 46 every mon to fri at 8pm :)

2007-06-12T23:39:00.000-07:00

finally received my cannery membership card after more than one month. time to party again~

2007-06-11T00:22:00.000-07:00

went to sentosa after work last sat. saw many old frens. like the last time i went during the holiday, there are only 2 courts left. but there are quite a few diy courts that ppl brought and pitch on the sand. seems like the trend nowadays to bring ur own courts. the 2 courts there have no boundaries as the lines are broken. so we had to draw lines on the sands to indicate the touchlines...quite pathetic. i played on the court where the net is low...so it was played at a leisure pace. we managed to win more than 10 consecutives matches. however i din enjoy it as much as before due to the low net and the temporary touchlines. tink its bcoz of my competitive nature that i want to play and win at standard beach vball. decided that i wont go down every week but rather on alternate sats that i have to work.

therefore this sat was spent playing mahjong! won ard 30 bucks...its the 2nd consecutive time i won so much already...the last being on labour day. feels so gd to be winning 5 tai hands and zhi mo at tat. so ya...the alternate sats will be spent playing mj and chilling out and playing pool at labyrinth after tat. the pool sessions alone on fri and sat nights came to 50 bucks per night. then there are the liqour. but im more willing to spend now coz really want to relax after a hard week at work.

will be at fluoro next week...gonna have backache.

2007-06-04T22:10:00.000-07:00

Kim Ah Joong - Byul (Star)

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me
don't be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,telling me to go to sleep

though I'm exhausted to the point where I cant walk
though my tears blur my vision
l still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk
though my tears blur my vision
l still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won't cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

2007-06-01T23:04:00.000-07:00

this week has been a comparatively easy week in the chest room. its not really a chest room technically. it is still used for orthopedic and urology cases. but using direct radiography is so much less tiring than CR. no cassettes to process and no long corridors to walk. and im more comfortable with post processing and sending/printing of films on the computer intead of the kodak wall unit. got a couple of complaints as well...but it was not really my fault. still it was rather demoralising.

im glad that we are able to be friends again before she starts work after being such a sore loser myself.

2007-05-31T13:01:00.000-07:00

finally pics of the siberian husky and sheltland sheepdog mixed breed i told u all abt.

so naughty ;)

2007-05-27T05:18:00.000-07:00

one week of work has passed. its been a tiring week. fell asleep after dinner every day. but i still sacrificed a few hours of sleep for the champions league final though. luckily it din end in a goal-less draw. work-wise its going quite well. gotten my uniforms and 2 new pairs of leather shoes. like the jacket that we have to wear...made us look more professional. downside being that it is quite hot to be wearing a long sleeved shirt, tie and a rather thick long sleeved jacket amidst a heavy workload.

haven had the "thank god its friday" feeling for a long time. not since year 2 in nyp ba. going to sch in yr 3 was not bad at all as i was able to see her in school everyday. tink its during working life that we will really appreciate weekends. so made full use of friday night after work and went for some shopping at orchard followed by drinks at zhong huan ktv pub. walked to circular rd for supper after that and also to see the music heritage pub that a few of my friends have been telling me abt. found out that the pub is actually opened by a friend! so the owner my 2 diff grp of friends are telling me abt is actually also my fren. wat a small world.

watched the swatch fivb(international association for beach vball) women's world tour semis on chn 5 today. its the first time an international competitive beach vball competition is held in singapore. and its such a major one. just building the temporary stadium at siloso beach cost US$800,000. the commentators and players seemed quite happy with the venue...a bit strange to say this but i felt kinda proud of singapore. the gers are really gd...too bad the really pretty ones are already knocked out in the first few rounds :p . the 3rd/4th placing and final will be shown on chn 5 at 3pm later today. catch it if u are lazing at home on sunday.

looking forward to my first pay day on the 7th ;)

2007-05-21T23:21:00.000-07:00

went dragonfly on saturday again. saw a fren there. she is a very pretty model who seems to be always going out with rich guys. just last sat she was there with 2 other guy frens, one with a 3l hennessy cannon and the other with a 3l chivas cannon. beautiful gers in singapore always seem to have it easy. no lack of rich guys willing to splurge on them either to show off, lay them or make them their gfs due to their neverending love for them after knowing them for one week. anyway wasnt really in the mood to club as there were only 2 other gers and 1 of them left early. so the 2 of us sat at bellini for a long chat and then we had the idea of walking to lau pat sat from harbourfront for supper. we talked the whole journey of 1 hour. its been a long time since i took such a long walk with anyone. we chatted during supper too. im surprised at how much we could talk too...haha.

today was my first day of work. my body clock couldnt adjust back and i only fell asleep at 3am the night b4. spent half a day with orientation and the 2nd half in the department. was posted to gic...which was wat i wanted for my 1st rotation. getting along well with the workflow and hope i'll be more familiar with it sooner. was a bit stressful to be passing films on my own but tink i'll get used to it. gotta rest early for another day of work tmr.

2007-05-19T06:38:00.000-07:00

just got home...still a bit groggly. went to labyrinth to play pool and some drinks. finally got to ask tiffany and jiajin down. tink they enjoyed themselves today...esp jiajin. but the pool was expensive. have u heard of anyone paying fourty over dollars for just a few hours of pool? haha...but it was rather worth it as the table and cues are gd. after drinking quite a bit of chivas i still headed down to dragonfly with one of labyrinth's staff. got a table and we drank her balance bottle of martell. still not used to martell and green tea...prefer coke. even though a bottle is not as expensive as i thought (a bottle of martell for $170+ for members), u still have to pay for every jug of mixer for $8. tink u'll need at least 5 jugs of mixer for a bottle which will equal to $40. dropped my pierre cardin coin purse on the taxi...was always careful when i wear this jeans with shallow pockets but tink i was not in the proper state to double check my pockets today.

it has been a busy week. finally watched spiderman 3. it was quite funny to see so many guys sniffing after the emotional ending. dunno if i can still wake up for mahjong tmr. shall try to grab a wink. hope i dun lose too much again ;)

2007-05-16T08:55:00.001-07:00

decide to renew my islander card today after much consideration. cafe del mar is a nice place to chill out. u can either suntan on the beach beds, decks or in the pool. theres a ledge at the sides of the pool where u can sit down and relax in the water. theres a pool bar right beside the pool too. drinks are reasonably priced and u can order drinks like coffee and shakes etc if u dun wanna drink alcohol. excellent shower facilities too...got shower head with heater. will find time to go back more frequently :) .

the skyride up for the sentosa luge!
the luge! only $5 for the skyride and luge combo for islanders ;) . fun fun fun!

2007-05-14T01:19:00.000-07:00

was supposed to go to the tertiary fling university edition bash at mos with a fren last thur. but she pang sei at the very very last minute. had a hard time finding ppl to go with me after tat. luckily i manage to get a fren along with 2 of her frens and her boss. i got to mos at 1045 and there was a very long queue so i dun tink i can use the free entry for the bash le. found out later that my fren's boss is a vip there and he signed all of us in and brought us to the tattinger lounge. it was an eye opener...its really a place for the atas people. theres a window where u can look down at the dancefloor. had some nice whisky too...McConnell's single malt whisky. my fren's fren who was an ex sia stewardess said they dun even serve that in business class...only in first class. haven even finish the first bottle when he opened another...tat is life~ ;).

slept only 2 hours b4 i joined some frens at sentosa for some beach volleyball. in the end they were even later than me. should really have slept another hour. the vball was gd...took some time to get used to playing vball again but soon we were having fun receiving, setting and spiking. it was made better by the fact we had a whole court to ourselves so we played 2 on 2 all day long. got a little sunburnt again.

had really bad luck playing mahjong on sat afternoon. lost abt $30 bucks. on at least 3 occasions i was waiting for a winning tile of 5 tai. in the end someone else won. and i was waiting for some really easy tiles, like 2 winds of no tai and 2, 5, and 8 wan. my fren was nice enough to treat me to dinner after tat :) . thanks.

was going to rush down to st james b4 9 to get free entry and then go to vivo to walk walk b4 meeting my frens at st james later to save some money due to losing at mahjong :( . reached home too late so couldnt go down early in the end. luckily my fren got the outlet manager at bellini to put us on the guest list :) . if this carry on i tink i will not be used to paying cover charge in the future...haha. went to power house, bellini, boiler room and dragonfly. dun really like the music at power house and the dancefloor at boiler room was too small. dragonfly is where all the pretty ladies are. however they are all there with the rich guys. bottles of martell and hennessy everywhere. on the table in front of us, there were 2 martells, 1 chivas and a bottle of hennessy. my fren told me that sometimes even if u want to open bottle also got no table for you. no wonder dragonfly is raking in the highest profits for st james. kinda like the place even though there are many complains from other frens. too crowded and full of uncles. probably will be going back there again.

watched deal or no deal on chn 5 just now. been hearing a lot abt the pretty models on the show. haha now even chn 5 have to resort to this kind of gimmicks. however the show was pretty interesting. the participant has to pick a briefcase at the beginning of the show. along the way he will be opening the other suitcases which has an amount of money inside. as the possibilities get lesser, the "banker" will offer the participant a higher and higher of money to deal. the participant will have to decide between taking the money or continue to open more suitcases and determine what is the amount of money in the suitcase he has chosen.

hmm...this is my 2nd last weekend b4 i start work. time really flies by. one last week to enjoy. running low on cash though. spent almost 1.5k on just meals and entertainment since my holidays 6 weeks ago. will do my best to make full use of this week w/o spending too much.

2007-05-09T09:42:00.000-07:00

im back on msn...with a new add. my new email is kenneth_hock@hotmail.com. if u see this, add me on msn and change ur email address book accordingly k?

went sentosa on labour day. its the first time i took the sentosa express since it was ready. my friends were complaining that the waiting time is very long. they should see the pre-sentosa express days. getting to the beach was such a hassle. so im actually quite happy that the sentosa express is finally ready. cafe del mar looks so nice...im tempted to renew my islander membership and going there frequently ;) . saw my old clique of beach vballers there. one of them had a new dog. its a mixed breed of siberian husky and sheltland sheepdog. its a funny combination really. even the dog looks funny but it was still cute. its still very scared of water when my friend tried to bring him swimming...haha. shall post pics of it when i get them from them from my friend...she's forever so slow.

sentosa express!!

went to this private party at eM(the old liquid room) last friday. its a birthday party of someone whos in mediacorp. saw jessica liu there and a couple of other actresses. jessica liu looks prettier in real life. also went union square before my friend drove us over to eM. union square hasnt changed at all. i forgot most of the moves already but whatever i can teach my friend was fun. or so she told me. there was this pathetic old man who tried to pick up another friend of mine. some stupid story abt how he used to go union square regularly and know a lot of ppl but now he dunno anyone le so he just came to drink alone to relieve stress. haha how lame can it get.

another embarassing thing to admit here. its my first time to MOS last sat. it was always very crowded when it opened one year ago so i din want to go then. din club at all during this one year so had no chance to visit MOS. i tink i prefer MOS over zouk/phuture. firstly the r&b section is bigger than phuture which is so packed. secondly, the crowd is good. the ratio of gers to guys was quite good even on a saturday day where the nsf are supposed to flood the clubs. the only bad thing is that they seemed to be a little understaffed...had to wait quite long to order a drink(even paying non coupon ones). i'll be receiving my membership card soon :)

what was to be a session of pool became another drinks and ktv session at labyrinth on monday. its the first time we managed to sing so many songs there. kept requesting songs for marvin who is such a gd singer...haha. saw 3 china women who are regulars there. they are damn hiong...3 of them finish 2 bottles of martell in a night. and the 3rd one only joined them later. they were drinking the martell neat in shots. whoa~

many people ask who is the purpose of a blog. they dun write a blog nor do they read others'. to them its just a form of narcissism. i beg to differ. a blog can update my friends how i have been doing during the time we are unable to catch up. its the same when i read their blogs...in fact i do hope more friends are writing blogs so i can keep up to date with their lives. at least then i would know when they are not doing so well and i can meet up with them. another reason is to share gd or interesting things with my friends. haha just some random rambling again. till my next update. meantime enjoy the song maria~ :)

2007-05-05T04:12:00.000-07:00

bloody hell! someone hacked into my friendster, email, and my msn. he/she deleted my friendster acct, clear all my inbox and change my msn password. if its just a random prankster/hacker, why me? if its someone i know, how did he/she know my friendster password which is different from my email and msn? really feel like reporting this to the police and see what can be done to catch the culprit. but its probably not worth the hassle.

2007-05-03T15:33:00.000-07:00

im down with a serious bout of diarrhea these 2 days. i've been passing out water for 2 whole days. it has gotten even worse today. in less than half a day i have been to the toilet 5-6 times. no medicine i ate has helped, not western pills or chinese bao ji wan. at this rate im going on drip in the hospital soon.

2007-04-30T02:42:00.000-07:00

work today was generally quite relaxing. set up our lcd tv and dvr set top box in a function room near the swimming pool. the room had air con, sofas and even a fridge. there was not much customers too. met a fren at bedok blk 85 for dinner after work. haven been there for a long long time. still loved the bak chor mee and or lua there. decided to go back to the playground for a look since i haven been there for quite some time. therefore my fren brought me to a bus stop where there are buses that can go there. din know blk 85 is within a short walking distance from the bus stop i used to transfer bus to her house. i dunno if sitting at the playground made me more emotional but i sent her the first sms since we broke up to ask to be friends again....

2007-04-29T01:43:00.000-07:00

brought my grandma to ttsh for followup yesterday since im so free. she had a mild AMI a few months back and the doctor wants to see the progress of the medication. waited for almost 4 hours and caused me to be late for my dinner date. hai...now i can understand my patients who always waited for so long.

went shopping at queensway today. bought some really nice and cheap stuff...haha. and on the way back i went into the lift with someone living in my block and a golden retriever! wat a beautiful dog! played with her a bit while in the lift. haha so happy to see a golden retriever in my block as they are actually too big to be allowed to keep in hdb flats.

going to work for starhub at a condominium roadshow tmr. they called me at 9pm plus and need a person urgently and i decided to help them since i have nothing to do anyway. always hear my colleagues say this kind of roadshow got bikini babes to see. haha shall see whether tats true tmr.

2007-04-27T00:35:00.000-07:00

wow kim ah joong is so soo beautiful. im in love with her~ haha. i tink i have never been so mesmerised by any actress before. the eye candy totally justified the price of the ticket for the 200 pounds beauty. when she first sang the song maria in the show, i fell in love with the song. i had been hearing the song quite a few times on radio but hearing it from her and her stage presence is just so different. dunno if she really sang the song. if she did, she would be perfect already ;). the show is funny and my fren feasted her eyes on the handsome producer too. its ending soon so go catch it before its gone. watch the mv of the song here.

i received news that i have to start work earlier. its both gd and bad at the same time. gd because i got something to keep me occupied, get paid earlier and i dun have to be in the dilemma of whether to go hongkong. bad because i dunno whether i need more time. whatever it is, i have agreed to start and i will do my best.

2007-04-24T23:42:00.000-07:00

saw a very comical sight at labyrinth yesterday. cannot drink dun drink and make a fool of yourself...haha.

im just one last step to a holiday in hong kong. got the money, available flights and accomodation. however suddenly lost the urge to go liao. when i planned the trip its to let her see that im still able to go on the trip without her just like wat she's doing. actually i dun really want to go hk at all. i would prefer taiwan. but i cant go there because she's going. another reason why i dun feel like going is because im worried that going on the holiday will constantly remind me of the fact tat we were supposed to go on the trip together. hai...still considering whether to book or not...

2007-04-23T17:02:00.000-07:00

played mahjong on saturday. it was going well at first. then came the ultimate blow. my fren already pong the bai pan and hong zhong so it was bao fai cai. as it was relatively early in the game and my hand was not bad, i decided to throw away my only fai cai in case later on in the game he really got 2 fai cai to pong. he really pong the fai cai! and to make things worse, he zhi mo his winning tile. i had to pay the maximum amount for everybody. really demoralised after tat. it was the only time in my life tat i see someone win a da san yuan and i tio bao. but at least the session was worth it. had a gd time laughing at things and people...haha. went for a free breakfast treated by the winner at geylang after tat. slept 3 hours and went for lunch at sakae sushi to celebrate peishan's bday. its a long time since i ate sakae man. din know we can make orders on the computers now...haha. photoblog next.

da san yuan!! with 2 animals and ban se too.

alice and me at 中环.

at labyrinth.

our drinks. still got one glass of wine left over from the bottle of red wine we opened...haha.

2007-04-20T10:06:00.000-07:00

another mr brown podcast. this is funny if you can understand ;) . Bar Chor Mee Part 2

and then u eat the cheap bak chor mee and then u die then u know :p

2007-04-20T03:51:00.000-07:00

tonight was the night i enjoyed myself most after so long. talking with the staff, playing the dice bluff game and cards, unlimited drinks, singing and talking with friends. havent laugh so much since. had a meaningful talk with someone tat build up my self esteem once again. i felt so much better. realised that there are still many people with expectations of me and i cant let them down.

after talking with a few people today, i've realised a few things. i've seen through friends that i had treasured before. finally saw who my true friends are after this 3 years. but i cant blame them either as they have their own reasons. and there are things tat are worth it and things tat are not. found back my direction in life. to do my best as a radiographer and work hard to repay my parents. to enjoy life while i can and live life to the fullest. haha tink everyone always say this after a breakup. but this was what i was already trying to do before i got attached. felt rejuvenated once again. our memories will forever be kept in a special corner of my heart. may you find happiness :)

tonight will be the night i tink i can finally sleep well. have been sleeping at 6 plus the past few days and finding myself waking up at 10 in the morning and unable to sleep again. tmr will be a new chapter of my life :)

2007-04-19T02:59:00.000-07:00

Below are 6 very funny life lessons to be learned.

Lesson 1: Naked Wife
A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her shower when the doorbell rings. The wife quickly wraps herself in a towel and runs downstairs. When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the next door neighbor. Before she says a word, Bob says, “I'll give you $800 to drop that towel.” After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of Bob.
After a few seconds, Bob hands her $800 dollars and leaves. The woman wraps back up in the towel and goes back upstairs. When she gets to the bathroom, her husband asks,…
“Who was that?”
“It was Bob the next door neighbor,” she replies.
“Great!” the husband says, “Did he say anything about the $800 he owes me?”

Moral of the story:If you share critical information pertaining to credit and risk with your shareholders in time, you may be in a position to prevent avoidable exposure.

Lesson 2
A sales rep, an administration clerk, and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp. They rub it and a Genie comes out. The Genie says, “I'll give each of you just one wish”
“Me first! Me first!” says the admin. clerk. “I want to be in the Bahamas, driving a speedboat, without a care in the world.” Poof! She’s gone.
“Me next! Me next!” says the sales rep. “I want to be in Hawaii,relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of Pina Coladas and the love of my life.” Poof! He's gone.
“OK, you're up,” the Genie says to the manager. The manager says, “I want those two back in the office after lunch.”

Moral of the story: Always let your boss have the first say.

Lesson 3
Dunno if can put here or not coz its a bit religion related. Ask me for it :)

Lesson 4
A crow was sitting on a tree, doing nothing all day. A rabbit asked him,"Can I also sit like you and do nothing all day long?” The crow answered: “Sure, why not.” So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the crow, and rested.
A fox jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very high up.

Lesson 5: Power of Charisma
A turkey was chatting with a bull “I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree,” sighed the turkey, but I haven't got the energy.” “Well, why don't you nibble on my droppings?” replied the bull. “They're packed with nutrients.” The turkey pecked at a lump of dung and found that it gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fourth night, there he was proudly perched at the top of the tree. Soon he was spotted by a farmer, who shot the turkey out of the tree.

Moral of the story: Bullsht might get you to the top, but it wont keep you there.

Lesson 6
A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Moral of the story:1. Not everyone who shts on you is your enemy
2. Not everyone who gets you out of sht is your friend
3. And when you're in deep sht, it’s best to keep your mouth shut!

2007-04-19T02:27:00.000-07:00

avril lavigne's "girlfriend" has been playing non stop on mtv. rather liked it at first but now i tink its overplayed to the point of annoying. the interview for a part time job went well today. the interviewer was very pleased with me but alas hes only doing the initial screening. there might be a 2nd round by the manager or i might be asked to start work straight. im hoping for the best :)

went to another ktv pub near clarke quay today. my friend had a bottle of chivas there and we went there for some drinks. finally learnt from the waitress there how to play the dice game after so long...haha. and its the first time i sang in public! not alone lah...still dun dare to sing alone. yaya u guys are going to say im torturing the people there. but im really trying not to le...if i cannot reach the pitch i will keep quiet and let the original voice play...lol.

the pub was getting crowded and i suddenly had the urge to play pool at ard 11pm and we went to park lane. the place really cannot make it. the tables are old, the cues are lousy and the place damn quiet. after playing 2 games, we left. we went to the pool parlour at paradiz but it was closing. so had no choice but to go to that place. i had been going to tat place even b4 i was together with her so im not trying any stunts ok. i saw someone i know and my worry was confirmed. i couldnt care less and i was not going to spoil my night. went ahead and played at that place. the place was so much better. enjoyed the game a lot coz i have improved so much from yesterday. getting back a bit of the feel. won every single game partly due to my improvement and my friend's rustiness...haha. rushed home to watch the chelsea match which im waiting for now :) .

had a lot of mixed feelings. i really dunno how much is friendship to some people. 2 years of friendship and some even 3 and it is gone just like tat. maybe my view of friendship is different ba. even if i dun meet a gd friend for 1 yr and he needs my help, i will be the first one to rush down. luckily i still have a grp of gd friends that share the same sentiments/thinking as me. but still there are other feelings inside me and i really dunno wat to do abt them.

dun tink too much le. tmr is gonna be a better day :)

2007-04-18T01:02:00.000-07:00

it is so irritating. y must it rain almost every afternoon. anyway was watching this new show on chn 46. its call pool bingo. its a variety show in which they play bingo using pool (as in billards) and also many other games. the world female champion is one of the hosts and you will get to see her play a bit. its quite interesting and as i sat there watching, i suddenly got the urge to play pool. so called one friend who stays nearby for a game of pool and she agreed readily. thanks :) . hadnt played pool for a long time and i suck big time...haha. but its ok...lotsa time to improve during this holiday. my plans of a overseas trip is now cancelled so i've got plenty of time to rot.

quote of the day: you will never marry the person u loved the most, but rather someone 2nd to her and someone u can live with. how true is tat? haha. going for a interview tmr...so excited...hope i can get the job. tmr is gonna be a better day :)

2007-04-16T02:56:00.000-07:00

played mahjong today! started with one round of 20 40 and i lost quite a bit. just woke up not long ago before playing and maybe i haven recover from the effects of yesterday alcohol. losing woke my senses and i fared so much better in the 2nd round which they increased the stakes to 40 80. recoup my losses and won a bit :) . first time play mahjong and drink red wine at the same time...haha. thanks to the host.

chelsea got into the final of the FA cup. really admire their determination and fighting spirit. despite a injury hit season, they are still in the running for all 4 competitions and winning so many matches at the last minute due to their never say die attitude. dunno how long they can maintain this though as it is really very physically straining after such a hard season. man utd impressed me with their demolition of roma a while back. especially ronaldo who has improved tremendously this season. call me jealous but i still dont like his looks :p. its gonna be an exciting finish to the title race if chelsea can keep this up.

neglected a lot of friends this past yr. therefore im very touched that they are still here for me in times of need. im really so blessed to have so many true friends. quote of the day from a friend a few days back: many things in life are very simple, its humans tat complicate matters. found it so true. tmr is gonna be a better day :) .

2007-04-15T13:05:00.000-07:00

"Charley Benetto is a broken man, his life destroyed by alcohol and regret. He loses his job. He leaves his family. He hits rock bottom after discovering he wont be invited to his only daughter's wedding. And he decides to take his own life.

Charley takes a midnight ride to his small hometown: his final journey. But as he staggers into his old house, he makes an astonishing discovery. His mother - who died eight years earlier - is there, and welcomes Charley home as if nothing had ever happened.

What follows is the one seemingly ordinary day so many of us yearn for: a chance to make good with a lost parent, to explain the family secrets and to seek forgiveness."

This is a new book by Mitch Albom, the author of 5 people u meet in heaven and tuesdays with morrie. It's titled "for one more day". judging from the synopsis and the title, it seems like a good book abt someone with regrets and he has one day to make do what he wanted. loved Albom's tuesday with morrie and i hope this will be as good. shall give a review when i am finished with it.

was with 2 friends at orchard and they asked me along to zouk. decided to go since i think the loud music will do me some gd. my friend managed to get free entry for me as her friend happened to have a event pass for the night. this is the first time i clubbed in almost a year and this is certainly the first time i have been to zouk after its major renovation. some new touches here and there but tat spot din change at all. phuture has changed totally. made a lot of new friends and the music was gd after a very slow start. but i still got away from all my friends and found a seat at zouk to rest for a while. cant believe my luck. i actually got touched on the waist by an ah gua (i think so) as she walked past me. yucks. the rest of the night was spent dancing away except for a few "interesting" incidents...haha.

passed by upper serangoon shopping centre. memories came flooding back. just knew abt the trip. happy tat u finally made it for the trip. tmr is gonna be a better day :) .

2007-04-13T23:24:00.000-07:00

today was the first day after making tat decision. the decision to take care of myself and not do anymore damage to my body. the day started brightly. i actually managed to get a very unexpected person to go to sentosa with me...haha. just get a cocktail and lie on the beach chair to suntan and read for the whole afternoon. but i guess fri the 13th is really very suay. just as im getting prepared to go, it started raining heavily.

so i had a sudden change of plan to go to the gym. my friend's friend working at the pub had a simple assignment to recommend me next week and i suddenly realised my body had not been in gd shape this few months. decided to buck up and start training. i think its gd to be doing something i used to do for a change.

just when i was leaving, saw something that hurt me very much. i dun care wat u are doing now. rather im happy that u are able to do things i couldnt give u before. but if u want to throw away any things, let me pick them up "by chance". i treasured everything in this relationship and i want to keep these memories with me forever.

on the way to sch, i realised i forgot my admin card. the bad luck never seems to end dont they? luckily they accepted my ez link and i had a constructive gym session. i had been getting msgs from some unexpected people and i really appreciate all the concern. tmr is gonna be a better day :)

2007-04-13T01:36:00.000-07:00

i stumbled upon your blog by chance. din know u had a blog all this while. now i know how u were feeling then and how every one of my happy posts of my ex affected u so much. wish that your current relationship will work out. take care :)

2007-04-13T00:30:00.000-07:00

watched the reaping last weekend in msia. watching a movie there is just so cheap...even on a weekend its only $4.50...haha. but the show itself is not very gd...its loosely based on the 10 biblical plagues. nothing to complain abt since its so cheap.

the song on my blog is from the movie music and lyrics. there are many nice songs from the movie and this is my favourite, even more than the popular way back into love. i just love this song, simple and nice :)

went to a pub at club street to relax tonight with a friend and her friends. it was nice sitting there talking, drinking and listening to people sing. my friend said that if the other person has already moved on, theres no point staying behind. after tinking much abt this sentence, i agreed too. it was sweet while it lasted. but there is no point just hanging on to memories. especially if im the only one hanging on to it while the other party enjoys her life. from tmr onwards, i shall try to live my life well.

2007-04-10T01:35:00.000-07:00

we have broken up again last wed. we are no longer suitable for each other.

thank you for trying to cheer me up today. I had fun shooting hoops today. thanks :)

2007-04-06T23:30:00.000-07:00

the previous post was deleted due to inaccuracies of the content

IT show 2007

2007-03-13T00:08:00.000-07:00

my first time shopping in a IT show in 2 years. have always been working for starhub in every it shows these 2 years. went with dear to buy speakers and divx dvd player for her room. went to look around for a speaker that she like. looked at the various speakers from creative, altec lansing, sonic gear, divoom and logitech. there was one speaker from divoom and one from sonic gear that she liked. in the end she settled for the divoom one even though it was more expensive as it has radio which she can use to replace the micro hifi she has in her room. she got a black and sleek lg divx dvd player to go along with tat speaker as well. the speaker was so sexy that i couldnt resist getting one for my cable tv in my room as well even though i have no real need for it. got 4 GP 2700mAh rechargeable batteries for $20 as well.

a gigantic speaker with 100W RMS at $159. comes with radio and wireless remote control too. swee~~

2007-03-08T20:27:00.000-08:00

glad to be back together with her again. we quarrelled badly the other time. we had a gd talk and now the problem is solved. she realised that she shouldnt give up so easily in a relationship and i shouldnt say once and for all in anger and we agree to give each other another chance again. so paiseh to be so "drama"...sorry.

free for all

2007-03-07T11:02:00.000-08:00

how is it that soccer players are able to get away with assault on the pitch? just after the arsenal and chelsea incident. valencia and inter milan should really get some punishment for not controlling their players. valencia and inter milan should be banned from the champions league for one season and the italian fa should punish them severly for tarnishing the image of italian football. it was really an ugly sight yesterday. the inter milan player ran after a valencia player for at least 1 min despite being held back by several ppl. a valencia substitute ran all the way to the pitch and punched the inter milan captain. in the tunnel several punches were thrown again. all these players should get some jail term to teach them a lesson. are they hooligans or sportsmen?

为我好

2007-03-04T20:22:00.000-08:00

才知道你脸上的微笑
不是幸福代表
是种不自在的礼貌
才知道感情已经动摇
我一直被误导
是你还不愿意揭晓
太多小烦恼怪
我们不懂得抛
太多的问号
答案也都不必找
只换来疲劳
忘了要一起变老
为何要无话可说
才懂沉默比争吵难熬
为何会在恨消失后
爱还是挽回不了
为何要在疼爱我的时候
才对我说离开我
都是为我好

Valentine's Day

2007-02-14T23:55:00.000-08:00

1st valentines day with dear dear. bought a bouquet from far east flora online for dear on the 12 of feb. then they called me on the 13th and told me that the flowers i bought were out of stock and that they cant make the delivery on the 13th as promised due to their overwhelming schedule. I told them i will look at the other selection but there were no more bouquets that were as nice. called them back angrily and insisted that they cant just tell me their flowers are out of stock and change the delivery time as and when they like. finally reached a compromise, i will choose another bouquet and they will "squeeze" in the delivery for me. pui...obviously they are able to deliver in the 1st place loh. really dissapointed with the service after paying so much.

anyway went to eat kenny rogers with dear today. nothing too expensive (im a poor student :p)...just something she had craving for quite some time. had the nice valentines special. bought dear's fav muffins for her to bring home too. she just cant have enough of the muffins! ;p

the valentines set. came along with 4 side dishes, 2 muffins and 2 iced teas.

the side dishes.

the v day present dear made for me :)

found a lot of the photos that we took today are corrupted. stupid camera...dunno what happened. hopefully can find a way to restore all the photos.

Happy Valentine's Day to all :)

tis the season to be jolly~

2007-01-02T09:36:00.000-08:00

hehe back from the holidays. sch starting once again. had a very enjoyable festival with dear starting from christmas to new year day. went for a nice and cheap (relatively) christmas eve dinner at sizzler with dear. went for a movie after midnight. took a lot of photos at orchard road with all the xmas decorations after the show too :)

went to science centre on the 29th. haha haven been there for so many years! it was quite fun. sat on the simulator once again and it was still as fun as many years ago when i was younger. watched deep sea in the imax theatre as well. the show wasnt tat gd though...a bit draggy and not too exciting. but the feeling of watching an imax show was still enough to get me excited...haha. some pictures.

us with our "iSpace" card. with this card we can explore new technology in our daily life. tink many of u might have seen the sci centre commercial abt iFuture on TVmobile. this is it ;)

a very beautiful tunnel. the lights are motion activated.

a virtual pond. u can wave ur hand above the lcd screen and u can see ripples on the surface of the water and leaves moving.

this is a device where u can just tilt and turn the table to zoom in on anywhere in the world...something like google world.

there are many more interesting exhibits...check it out if u have the time and money ;)

went to watch the fireworks at esplanade on new year eve. breathtaking display. but the transport back was very bad. took so long to just squeeze out of tat crowd and had to stand for more than 1 hour on the nightrider when a normal bus ride would have just taken half an hour.

the breakfast tat dear made for me on new year day. delicious~ :)

ok its the end of the festive season. back to sch and quizzes and test and project once again :( . hope u guys had a happy new year and may u fulfill ur resolutions.

nokia music mobile

2006-12-24T00:23:00.000-08:00

happened to board the nokia music mobile bus tats going ard the clubbing spots from 9pm to 1am. just tat i board it at 12pm. i just found out tat its actually used as a normal bus during the day. anyway here are some pics of the bus and also take this chance to show the quality of the photos taken by my phone for those who are interested. mediocre at best for a 2MP cam.

so nice. wished that all singapore buses can be like tat. for more information on routes and schedule visit www.nokia.com.sg.

giant xmas tree tat i took at vivocity. wishing all a merry merry xmas :)

movies

2006-12-22T01:21:00.000-08:00

watched 2 movies in 2 days. curse of the golden flower was nice. the set was very nicely done and the costumes elaborate. and it has a gd plot too. its interesting to see jay chou in this kind of dressing, its so unlike him. his acting still sucks though...but who cares~ ;)

love eragon. really like this kind of medieval middle earth setting. whereby theres magic and dragons and heroes...hee. this show was short and sweet. wished they had shown more of the princess though ;).

chelsea's win

2006-12-18T00:31:00.000-08:00

why is khalid boulahrouz in a chelsea shirt? he's supposed to be a replacement for william galls? oh pls, dun kid me. looking at the way he defends with his arms, he should join wrestling. anyway it was a wonderful 3 goals from chelsea. ballack's equalizing free kick, lampard's spectacular swerving shot and best of all drogba's amazing dipping volley from a distance after chesting the ball perfectly. how many of such goals is he going to score this season? ;)

back from kelong~

2006-12-18T00:26:00.000-08:00

im back from the kelong. it was a relaxing and enjoyable trip with dear =). the kelong is situated off pulau sibu and can be reached by boat from tanjong leman. we went to this island where the waves were almost twice my height...so fun...haha. din manage to take any photos of the island and the waves coz we forgot to bring our camera in a hurry. as for the rest, i shall let the pictures do the talking ;)

view of pulau sibu from our kelong. pulau sibu is actually made up of 4 islands. i dunno which one this is :p

the toilets. there are 4 in total and they are quite clean. watever u pee or shit will go into the sea :p

ppl fishing

where we slept

dear and mine's pig sty :p

overview of the sleeping quarters

tv area. hmm...they have most of the cable channels. managed to catch some live soccer on sat night ;). theres also a playstation 2 behind.

sunset at the kelong =)

hehe really enjoyed myself. thank you dear for bringing me there =)

Our Z610i

2006-11-28T23:33:00.000-08:00

hehe we bought the same phone. Overall it is a very gd phone, both function wise and look wise. it has 3G, a 2MP camera, expandable memory in the form of memory stick micro and a user friendly and relatively fast interface. the sound quality of the music player is good too. the oled external display is simply a class act. my first sony ericsson phone and i love it! esp when we are using the same phone ;)

梁静茹 - 暖暖

2006-11-25T15:23:00.000-08:00

都可以随便的
你说的我都愿意去
小火车摆动的旋律
都可以是真的
你说的我都会相信
因为我完全信任你
细腻的喜欢
毛毯般的厚重感
晒过太阳熟悉的安全感
分享热汤
我们两支汤匙一个碗
左心房暖暖的好饱满
我想说其实你很好
你自己却不知道
真心的对我好
不要求回报
爱一个人希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的
你比自己更重要
编曲:洪敬尧监制:钟成虎
回忆里满足的旋律
你手掌的厚实感
什么困难都觉得有希望
我哼着歌
你自然的就接下一段
我知道暖暖就在胸膛
从来都很低调
自信心不高
你比自己更重要
我也希望变更好

2006-11-14T07:53:00.000-08:00

i have been given another chance. regretted my actions and tried so hard this few days but to no avail. came out of nowhere today. in a most bizzare way. who or wat powers are actually running the universe? definately there are things beyond our control. watever it is, people, treasure the loved ones around you. do not do anything to hurt them or let anything affect how u have always wanted to treat them. be grateful for wat you have today...

六月的雨

2006-11-13T23:05:00.000-08:00

一场雨把我困在这里
你冷漠的表情会让我伤心
六月的雨就是无情的你
伴随着点点滴滴痛击我心里
oh~相信你不是故意的
却为何把我丢弃在风雨里
oh~忍心也不想背叛你
惟有默默等你回心转意
我没有放弃也不会离你而去
哪怕要分开我依然等你
我全心全意等你的消息
终会有一天你会相信我我爱你

end of exams~

2006-10-05T19:08:00.000-07:00

exams is finally over! its been a enduring and tough 2 weeks...not only academic wise but some other aspects also. clinical attachment to come next week. but this weekend im gonna enjoy myself first!! =)

23rd birthday!

2006-09-25T00:28:00.000-07:00

dear planned a very special birthday for me. we rented a car for the day and went many places! there were many surprises planned for me.

pretty dear at my place before setting off ;)

my 23rd birthday blackforest cake from secret recipe. didnt expect any cake at this time as there was obviously no cake in the car. this is one of the surprise she managed to pull off =)

dear feeding me my birthday cake =)

on mount faber. dear lied that we are going there to waste some time before going for dinner somewhere else.

surprise no 2. little did i know that we will end up at a al fresco restaurant on mount faber. the lamb rack and steak were very nice~. dear said not to expect much for my birthday present as she already went over her budget and gave me my birthday present of a box of my fav chocolate.

went to km8 on tanjong beach next. it was already closed and we found a beach chair with a table and we set up our drinks.

dear ask me to take my portable speakers from the car. when i went off, she hid my actual present somewhere and asked me to find it when i came back. it was quite embarassing looking under the chairs when there are a few other couples around. however it was kinda fun...haha. and this is wat i found. something which i wanted for quite some time!

we arranged the tealights together. such a beautiful sight ;)

soaking in the ambience and slacking.

went for supper after this and tried to watch the sunrise at east coast park but it was too cloudy tat day to have any nice views. nevertheless it was the most memorable birthday of my life. thank you dear for everything!

happy 1st month anniversary =)

2006-09-01T01:33:00.000-07:00

happy 1st month anniversary! i dunno wat did i do to deserve u. i really feel so blessed and lucky to have u in my life. yea lets wait for our 1st yr, 10 yr till our diamond anniversary and more! love you always!

oreo cheesecake

2006-08-30T01:07:00.000-07:00

oreo cheesecake!

dear and me baked oreo cheesecake today! it was our first time...baking tat is ;) . went to donate blood at bloodbank and went to buy the ingredients in the morning. the process was very fun and it was so satisfying to taste the cake at the end of the day. so nice~! it was especially nice coz its baked together with darling (mushy mushy again =) )!

enough is enough

2006-08-21T22:32:00.000-07:00

this is coming to an end. my tagboard will be taken down. im putting this in the simplest english possible so that u guys might have a slight chance of understanding. this is not to hide anything from anyone. it is getting tiring and i dun wish to degrade myself by stooping to your level. i did not use the vulgarities. the fact that u are using it and even impersonate me using it shows your character. to miss j who thinks im childish because i call these ppl brainless. i have already said that i can remove my tagboard easily if i have something to hide. yet they go on and on about me being scared of ppl knowing and thats why i want to remove my tagboard. if tats the case, wat are they tagging on? i have already said not to test my patience and make personal attacks on pauline. i have reached tat limit and hence the "brainless" part. if u guys think u have the ability to make me regret "seeing u on the street" then i would like to see that. im already shivering in fear. and miss j u said that my gf deserves all this because of what i did. hence i should be allowed to think that u should be jailed coz ur brother is a thief? i am responsible for my own actions and no one else should be judged. i cant believe u dont understand this theory at your age. so dont go ard telling me what not to do at my age. lastly to miss p, i didnt put anything uglier than it was. i have already hid some details to save your reputation. maybe next time u can try not to be so initiative.

this is my final response to this matter on my blog. thank you guys who have been supporting me via my tagboard/sms/msn.

To: Kenneth haters

2006-08-12T01:46:00.000-07:00

u guys really tink my true friends will be affected by what u all say over here? did u realise if i really have something to hide from the world, i can easily remove the tagboard in 30 seconds? the protagonist herself is not making any noise, y are u guys still so childish to be doing all this? will it help her feel better? i have never led her on more than i should and i have already tried to minimise the damage. right from the start i only said i will try because i wasnt sure if i can forget pauline. and if she actually opened her eyes big enough she would have sense the coldness from me even though i tried to treat her nicely. i didnt tell any of my friends because i wanted to make sure of my feelings first. and lastly i made the cruel decision as soon as i realised i wasnt able to work out with her which is only slightly more than a month. i've made the mistake of attempting to make her a replacement in my sorrows. it was the easy way out, made further easier because she initiated everything. its only through this incident that i realised no one is going to replace pauline in my heart. even if im judged a bastard by others, i deserved it. i did the only thing i can do, which is to express my regret and apology to the protagonist. so guys...let this matter rest so that she can forget it faster.

ps: u can scold me all u want but dun involve pauline in this. she didnt do anything wrong. dun push my limit.

2006-08-11T02:24:00.000-07:00

went with darling to her homeland on national day...the singapore zoological gardens. took many photos! dun have much time now so i will update a few 1st.

singapore zoo~

dear going to be packed for transportation :p

this is taken the night b4 we went to the zoo. i like this photo a lot so i shall put it up too.

my beloved

2006-08-08T00:16:00.000-07:00

thank you guys for ur well wishes and blessings. and for standing by me when people doubted me. we are finally together after going thru so much! kinda mushy but im really in bliss now :) . im so blessed to have met u!

blessing in disguise~

2006-07-31T00:37:00.000-07:00

had the best time of my life this weekend. doing simple things with the right person can still be so perfect. even though everything didnt start well, simply the thought of doing something already made me smile. even though the wait was long, thinking of u made it bearable. eating tim sum for breakfast and simply just walking ard with you buying snacks for me made my day, no matter how tired i am. im really happy u are willing to spend the whole day with me. happy also that u are willing to risk going home late to eat something i like. and for the card. i will always remember wat you wrote on it and also how u wrote it ;) . next time dun be shy ok? :p

thank you...

drowning in work

2006-07-27T05:13:00.000-07:00

everybody is blogging abt the hectic sch life. i shall do my part also :p . i was almost tricked into believing i had a relaxing sem when i first got my time table. most days end by 3pm, 1 day at 12pm and no sch on fri on most weeks. i tink outright conned would be a better word. had endless meetings for behavioural sci and final year project. endless assignments for radiation informatics on choosing a radiology information system and operating system for a hospital, photoshop and now web design. on top of the almost weekly quizzes. going to the gym became a chore. forcing myself to go for a run even though im having a slight headache or feeling light headed because i have to run to keep my weight down and there isnt a day i dun feel like tat. the result of averaging less than 4 hours of sleep a day. add working on the next weekend to all this.

the only respite from all this is you =)

and now an overdue pic

ripcurl open 2006: team walkover :)

幸福

2006-07-23T14:23:00.000-07:00

cooked something for a person today. its the 1st time i spent a considerable amt of effort cooking for someone. i was quite worried how it would turn out as i had never tried cooking this b4.

korean bibimbap!! =)

even though the thing she cooked wasnt specifically for me, i still feel very happy =)

ripcurl open 2006

2006-07-18T17:42:00.000-07:00

took part in the biggest beach vball competition of the year over the weekend. it was called quiksilver open the past few years but the organisers decided to get ripcurl to sponsor this year so it was called ripcurl open. out of the 3 group matches, we won 2 and lost 1. the team who won us went on to win their 3 group matches so we got knocked out. there was no way we are going to win if we cant even receive simple balls. i was angry with our performance at 1st. the anger turned to disappointment. i had high hopes of getting into the 2nd round at first but it was not to be. the lack of one male member proved to be fatal as there was simply no blocker. whatever it is, we did our best even though it was not enough. at least we ended on a high note by thrashing our opponents in our last game and the ripcurl singlet was nice.

2006-07-11T23:59:00.000-07:00

i did a very cruel thing today...

im sorry. i really am...

its all over~

2006-07-10T22:20:00.000-07:00

ITALIA: 2006 World cup Champions

the world cup has finally ended after 4 weeks and 64 matches. it has been the most memorable world cup in my life. i started watching the world cup in 1994, when brazil lifted their fourth title after winning a penalty shootout in which roberto baggio of italy missed. i supposed i was too young then to really remember the details of 94 and 98. i missed much of the last world cup in 2002 due to army commitments and i dont even remember who brazil won in the final as i didnt watch it. im lucky this time round, as my holidays happened to be in june which is not usually the case. i managed to catch every single match of this world cup, sans a couple of matches. and it is also the 1st time i caught the final outside, along with a few hundreds soccer fans. it has been an exciting and interesting experience, even though i still begrudge starhub for making me pay extra when i subscribed to the sports group a year ago just to watch the world cup. withdrawal symptoms of no world cup has already kicked in and i will do myself a lot of good to adjust back before the sch term got into full swing. not that its easy to do when i have a couple of dvds to watch and a new korean serial starring Rain(!) and lee dong gun.

watched eight below on dvd over the weekend. its a really nice touching show. the dogs are so intelligent, brave and cute. a definite tear jerker.

why do a man like me cry when i watch movies and dramas? coz when i watch these shows, i really open myself to the emotions of the characters and feel them. in fact i like to cry when watching these kinda shows as i know when the show is over, everything is back to reality, whereby i have to go back to the man the society perceives to be.

it pains me to see u like this...

my heart goes with england...

2006-07-02T16:03:00.000-07:00

england lost!

watched the match at hard rock cafe. really had a nice feel to the place. there was an equal mix of english and portugese supporters and they were vocal in expressing their support. having a nice seat and drink helps too ;)

i think that england played their best match in the world cup so far. no more long balls. so many english players played outstandingly. gerrard, aaron lennon, owen hargreaves!, ashley cole and john terry. hargreaves sure answered his critics with his performance today. they controlled the midfield and limited the portugese to few chances. yet, that stupid rooney had to get himself send off. and while im at this, i want to voice my frustrations at the refereeing at this world cup. if a slight push like this warrants a red card, then shouldnt the push on petit by sneijder in the portugal vs holland match be a red card? he bloody hell pushed petit to the ground. there are so many inconsistencies throughout this world cup. a few penalties had been given for delibrate handballs in the penalty box. wat then should be the consequence of adducting ur arm to block a cross in the penalty box? nothing. and dun tell me its unintentional or ball to hand. its as stupid as de rossi telling the world that his elbow on mcbride was an accident. the portugese player's arm was obviously outstretched when the ball was kicked. then when he saw the ball was going under his arm, he pulled down his arm to block the ball. yes u can say the referee cant see everything. but its small crucial incidents like this tat get missed tat marred the whole world cup.

the penalty shootout. before the match ended, i told my fren that i got a very bad feeling if it gets to penalty shootout, ricardo will make many saves. and the 2 golden boys of england missed their penalties. lampard, who had a disappointing campaign so far continued his misery. gerrard, the saviour of liverpool on so many occasions, couldnt save england this time round. gerrard's expression when lampard missed the first penalty sums up the match. the bitterness on his face and the sour in his eyes as he looked away trying to hide his tears. bitter at fighting so hard even after one man down and still having to come down to the cruel penalty shootout. sour at their jinxed fate knowing that tis miss will make it so mucher harder for them to win. i will never forget that look.

i had always believed that england has the potential to win this world cup because despite them not playing to their best yet, they got to the quarters and when they finally start playing their best, they will be unstoppable. even though they played better today, they did not play to their full potential yet. it wasnt enough on this day, when luck and referee was against them. my heart goes with you, england...

ps: ronaldo winked at the portugese bench after getting rooney sent off. being his team mate at man utd, he knew all abt rooney's temperament. wat do u tink was in his mind when he went over to the referee?

adiós~

2006-06-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

220606 0950 heralds the embarkment of a new journey for my good friend of 10 years. even though we seldom meet up towards the later part of the 10 years, he was a friend i can count on in times of need. someone i can just call anytime knowing that he will do his best to help. he has left his friends, family and home to work in china for a few years, with the possibility that he might be staying for good. i know i will miss him. take care and hope u enjoy ur new life over there :)

the world cup is building up to be one of the best ever. the stars are performing to their expectations. this world cup has seen such a overwhelming pool of talent. messi, gerrard, klose, riquelme, ronaldinho, torres and the list goes on. there are no lack of last gasp winners or equalisers and upsets. teams who are doing well based on teamwork and determination (ghana and korea). most importantly there are lots of goals. im enjoying every moment of it~ =)

steven gerrard i love u!!

2006-06-16T05:02:00.000-07:00

today has got to be the best night of my world cup betting so far. exact score on england winning 2-0 and sweden drawing at half time and winning at full time. this will be the start of my winnings after some freak results from the countries' first matches.

hee actually i also dun bet a lot. but when there is a wager, however big or small, just makes watching the match tat much more exciting. especially when u are the only one at home watching in the wee hours of the night. it has certainly made watching the england match so exciting that i was on the edge of my seat for the whole 2nd half and when gerrard scored the 2nd goal in the 91st min, i jumped out of my seat and shouted gooaall as though i was the scorer.

wat a bad bad neighbour i am ;P

2006-05-25T22:57:00.000-07:00

This has got to be the sexiest phone of the year!! magnesium and aluminium finish. and all the functions of a typical 3G phone at only 15mm. i would buy it immediately if i had the money =( .

tmr is the last day of my longest stint of attachment yet!! im so so happy!! it was a long semester with the usual quizzes and tests. even after our exams theres no break at all before our 6 weeks of attachment and endless report writing. even though i have got nothing planned for this holidays, i still look forward to this break so much. this block of attachment has reconfirmed where i want to work after i graduate. anyway NNI was really fun and i must say i really learnt quite a lot over there. i think i have gained much CT knowledge over there.

had an easy job over last weekend. some neat money to sleep 2 nights at the levis booth outside cineleisure and look out for the equipment. and i wont have to miss my volleyball saturday. more of such assignments pls ;) .

im still so happy that tmr's the last day. tink im going to pamper myself by watching rain's dvds till late. anyway esh is quite slack that i rented a novel just to pass time in the afternoon =)

一辈子的牵手

2006-05-20T23:35:00.000-07:00

22岁的时候，我牵起了你的手，涩涩的望着你双膜，想把心里的话对你说。32岁的时候，我要牵着你的手，缓缓的走进礼堂中，巩筑属于我们的小窝。42岁的时候，我要牵着你的手，默默的证明我所说，现上多年累积的所有。52岁的时候，我要牵着你的手，闲闲的看着机窗口，体会傲游环宇的感受。62岁的时候，我要牵着你的手，慢慢的走在细雨中，回忆共同度过的年头。72岁的时候，我要牵着你的手，静静的坐在家门口，享受幽闲浪漫的午後。82岁的时候，希望仍能牵着你的手，轻轻的拥你在怀中，用我始中不变的温柔。92岁的时候，也许再也牵不到你的手，但做了一辈子的牵手，爱你的一生早以足够...

for madam white snake

2006-05-17T23:55:00.000-07:00

dunno wat to blog abt. when something interesting happen, i have to blog abt it soon or else i will lose the enthusiasm to blog. last week was a busy and tiring week for me. slept at 2, 3, 4 and 5am on each of the days and had to wake up at 630am everyday. surely i would be too tired to blog abt what i did. but nonetheless i never did show any signs of fatigue at work...unlike some ppl who came to work right on the dot or slightly later, go for long breaks irregardless of how busy the department is, clock watch and disappear before u can blink once its time to knock off.

NNI is a nice place to work. firstly its one of the nearer places to my house. and i got to do CT head scans by myself. but i feel so lazy now that i've been putting off my CT experience report.

behind every smile hides my misery...

my beach volleyball life

2006-05-13T05:06:00.000-07:00

its been more than a month since i last went to sunset bay. imagine me getting teased for being so fair this 2 weeks that i went...almost drove me crazy...haha. and it totally sucks to see myself playing badly but im not too bothered by that as i know it will eventually come back. it is already coming back slowly during my last few matches of 2 on 2 today. something else bothered me deeply....

so many things have changed. sunset bay is shifting to east coast in around 2 months time. a few more couples popped up among my frens. more importantly, frens that i played volleyball with through my almost 3 years of volleyball life were notably missing. frens that i have inexplicable on court communication with. i saw one of them today who went to sunset bay to play soccer with his grp of frens. had a short chat with him and found out that he had quitted beach volleyball coz of a recent injury. he went on to say that volleyball is only for fun and its not worth getting injured so frequently for it which will affect his work. he even said its time to change a new sport now that sunset bay is shifting. looks like my hope of entering this year quiksilver competition with him is now gone. we had entered a competition previously and after getting into the 2nd round, i fell sick the next day and couldnt make it there. so after finding 2 better female teammates i had hoped for a top 4 finish in the biggest beach volleyball competition this year. suddenly my beach volleyball life seems so uncertain. will there still be a place to play after sunset bay shifted? will they still have enough courts over at east coast? will i ever find such vball khakis that have the same high expectation of ourselves, fighting spirit and teamwork? even though there are still many ppl to play with, its different when i win games with them knowing we had come to this day together. will i still be playing beach volleyball?

2006-05-10T02:06:00.000-07:00

someone made the same mistake as me and is now hurt. at least he knew how deep the pit was and still risked falling to the bottom of it. but i jumped right into a bottomless pit and dunno how far and hard i will fall. did i make the right decision...

doc, can i do a release for this patient?

2006-05-04T22:31:00.000-07:00

got thrown into the ivu room by myself today w/o any prior experience. luckily i still remembered how to prepare the contrast, apply compression etc. gotten my competency also...i would be furious if no one gonna sign for me.

haven been to the beach for more than a month liao. miss volleyball so so much. i can sense myself losing the feel of the ball liao. will go down this sat after my salsa class. got a lot to catch up on...gonna need some time to regain my standard.

got to start on my bmd experience report liao. stupid reports!

cute innocent kids : )

2006-04-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

working with children never fails to cheer me up =) . being at kkh is really a joy for me. just that report writing is starting again and im not getting enough sleep. i must admit the lack of sleep is not all due to report writing lah...but working office hours really prevents one from having much social life...especially when u still have to write reports at night.

just finished lovers in paris. nice show...quite touching towards the end but still not as nice as full house :p . yea this is part of the reason why im not getting enough sleep.

top of the world?

2006-04-23T08:24:00.000-07:00

=)

2006-04-19T09:33:00.000-07:00

im happy as long as you are :)

mount ophir: post trip thoughts

2006-04-18T09:11:00.000-07:00

back from mount ophir. it was really a disappointing trip. preparation wise, planning wise and attitude wise it was really bad. planning wise i dun want to mention coz i wasnt able to help as i was having my exams. preparation wise they are all "busy" ppl so they wasnt able to train so i will be understanding and wont blame them. but i was really disheartened(yes tats the word) by their attitude.

as i was so much faster than the rest of the group after coming down from summit to our base camp, i took only a sip of water b4 i started cooking lunch for the rest. i washed all the dirty mess tins from YESTERDAY dinner and started cooking lunch. when they came down, some ppl decided to take a bath in the stream so the rest of us ate first. when those ppl came to eat, i decided to go pack my bag so that we can break camp faster. after i packed my bag and came out of the tent i saw those ppl still sitting ard the meal area and chit chatting. so i went to relieve myself and when i came back they are in the tent packing their bags, leaving all the dirty mess tins there. i was damn pissed at this but i dun want to waste time so i went to help my friend wash all the mess tins. after washing the mess tins they were still packing their bags so i helped to wipe away the oil on the mess tins. by the time i finished wiping they have only just started on unpitching the tents so i went to help them again.

am i being taken for granted? i din even rest at all after the scaling the summit while they can bathe and chit chat and not wash their own utensils after eating. just because u're tired doesnt mean u can leave the dirty work to others. and isnt it ironic that u say mount ophir is too tough for the public(this is just a recce trip for the actual trip in june) when we saw a group of mainly 40 to 60 years old completing the journey. is it a factor of willpower or plain physical fitness? maybe its because of the high expectation i had. being experienced organisors of camps, i expected the trip to be more well-planned. having previous trekking experience, i expected them to be more fit. turned out that the 2 gers i brought last time was fitter when the only exercise they did was doing napfa. turned out that the planning was better done by a 19 yr old. yes...it must have been the high standards that have been set long time ago that made this trip disappointing. somehow i cant convince myself...

another new v3 colour?

2006-04-16T08:02:00.000-07:00

my newly customised v3. the wonders of g mask :)

end of exams!

2006-04-12T08:09:00.000-07:00

last paper tmr! so happy and tired that i cant bring myself to study. so far all the papers have been ok...either easier or within expectations except for rad anat. tink i really cant memorise stuff that well, especially when i have to memorise stuff that doesnt make sense and not linked. well u can argue that it would all make sense if i still remember my anatomy from yr 1. you can say all u want but it will make lesser sense to me to keep ALL that info in my brain.

just received news that i have to hand in all the yr 2 competency reports tmr. i am actually quite pissed abt this whole incident. firstly they should have inform us to keep all our competency reports right at the start of yr 2. then they told us a few weeks back that we might need all the reports again b4 we graduate so we should keep them. they changed their mind again on tue and said that they want all the reports by this week. not that we will throw again all our reports but at least they should let us know so that we would have put it in a better place. now i dont know if i can even find my reports. and they have to inform us at such short notice during our EXAM period. great~

leaving for mount ophir for the 2nd time in a year tmr night. i have so many considerations that i really dun feel like going already. but i had already promised the mumbo peeps. tink i'll be quite tired after my paper tmr and i haven pack my bag yet. 2 impt birthdays this weekend. have to make gy pay for the tag at sunset bay coz i cant go. attachment on mon.

well...i should be starting on my studying already...

champion-elect

2006-04-09T19:38:00.000-07:00

whoa~ im impressed. ever since chelsea drew that barcelona match with 10 men and got knocked out of the champions league, they have not been in good form and man utd managed to close the gap to 7 points. when they played west ham yesterday, things were really looking down for them when west ham scored in the 10th min and maniche of chelsea got sent off in the 12th. Determined not to let history repeat itself like tat fateful match against barca, they came fighting back. No...they roared back with 4 goals. it could have been more due to some golden chances being wasted as they played seemingly with 12 men instead of 10. these are wat champions are made of!

dreamt the whole of sat night while sleeping. of the same thing. i did not even realise this thing was so impt till now.

anyway im happy now =)

korean serials and now korean food ; )

2006-04-01T07:23:00.000-08:00

i love dolsot bibimbap. its a korean dish which means stone pot mixed rice. it is rice in a stone bowl topped with vegetables such as white radish, cucumber, bean sprouts, seaweed and beef/chicken with a sunny side up egg in the centre. all the ingredients are then mixed together with gochujang (chilli pepper sauce). yummy~!

retail therapy??

2006-03-31T10:00:00.000-08:00

my contact lens broke in my eye this morning while trying to adjust the lens. wat a lousy brand! its not only more expensive than my previous brand, the colour is not nice and its not comfortable to wear. went to suntec city to buy my previous brand spectroflex after sch. dunno how did i end up shopping and spending almost 100 dollars. oh man...wats wrong with me? buying too many things lately...

just finished another korean serial "sweet love". hmm...another funny show with a gd looking cast. exams is coming up...hai temporary loss of freedom once again. i really wish i can motivate myself to study hard this time round but i foresee its going to be a lost cause already. sighs...

its really hard to supress ur feelings...

one litre of tears for aya

2006-03-28T07:30:00.000-08:00

just finished one litre of tears...a jap drama serial. its abt this ger aya who contracted spinocerebellar degeneration, a incurable neuro disease at the age of 15. before this she was a bright student of tokyo high school and got into the main basketball team in her freshie year. as the class monitress, she also managed to convince her class of self-centered students to do their best for a class singing performance. her crush on her senior is also starting to work out. she seems to have a perfect life...until the disease strike her. her muscles began wasting away and she will not be able to walk, talk or even eat in the future. her senior deserted her because he was afraid of trouble. in the midst of her courageous battle with the disease, a male classmate stood by her alongside her supportive and loving family.

this is really a very touching serial. there are so many tear-wrenching scenes. these are some of my favourite scenes.

-------------------------Spoiler Alert----------------------------

1) When her younger sister scolded her youngest brother for not standing up for her in front of his friends when they made fun of her walking because he felt ashamed of her as he had told his friends that his sister is a pretty and smart ger who plays very good basketball earlier on.

2)When she went back to her classroom to take something she forgot, she accidentally came across a class discussion abt her. only then did she know that her classmates are very unhappy with her for slowing down the class and even her close frens are finding it hard to help her with her daily activities every day. she decided to quit tokyo high and join a special school after this and gave a touching farewell speech.

3) The way she looked at asou in the sunset after her teacher's wedding. she had just given him a farewell letter saying they should not see each other again because they are in different world. she looked so happy when the bouquet of flowers her teacher threw fell into her lap. but now she had to make such a tough decision and she cried in front of her parents tat night. when they asked her y she wrote tat letter to asou, she just asked them one question and continued to cry silently. "Can i ever get married?"

叶子的掉落，是风的追求，还是树的不挽留。。。

2006-03-22T08:45:00.000-08:00

here's a nice story i've read a long time ago. just saw it again recently so i thought i would like to share it with the ppl who havent seen this before.

树的告白:

会叫树的原因，是因为我擅长画水彩画，最爱画树，久而久之，我的画作右下方索性以一棵树来代表我。
高中三年交过五个女朋友，有一个女孩子，我很爱她，却迟迟不敢追，她没有美丽的面孔，没有姣好的身材，没有撩人的魅力，一个再平凡不过的女孩子。我喜欢她，真的真的很喜欢她，喜欢她的单纯，她的直率，她的可爱，她的智障，她的脆弱。
不追她的原因，也许是潜意识觉得平凡如她配不上我；也许是因为怕在一起后，一切的好感都会消失；也许是怕外人的指指点点伤害了她；也许是觉得，她会是我的，不用急着为了她而放弃一切。
最后这个原因，让她陪了我三年，让她看着我和别的女孩子厮混了三年，让她心痛了三年。
她很想当一个好演员，但我却像一个严苛的导演。我和第二个女朋友在厕所接吻，被她撞见，她尴尬的笑笑说：「Go on！”然后跑掉，第二天，她眼睛肿得跟核桃一样，我故意不去猜想是谁让她哭成这样，嘲笑了她一天，她在所有人都回家后，在教室哭了起来，她不知道练球回来拿东西的我，看了她一个多小时。我的第四个女朋友，一直很不喜欢她，有次她们两个吵了起来，我知道依她的个性不会去惹事，但我还是护着女朋友，她被我吼了一下后，愣住，眼泪滑了下来，我无视她的眼泪，陪女友走出教室，第二天，她依旧嘻嘻哈哈的和我开玩笑，我知道她很难过，但她不会知道我的心不比她好受。
当我和第五个女朋友分手时，我约她出去玩，玩了一天，我对她说：「我有事要对??说。”她说：「真巧，我也有事要对你说。”「我和她分手了。”「我和他在一起了。”我知道「他”是谁，他追她也有一阵子了，是个蛮可爱的男孩子，活泼有趣，充满了热情，追她追得满城风雨。我不能表现自己的心痛，只能笑笑地恭喜她，但当我回到家，心中的痛楚强烈得令我无法承受，像有个千斤重的石头压在我胸口，我无法呼吸，想大叫却叫不出来，眼泪竟然滑了下来，我掩面大哭，多少次，我也看着她为了那个不愿承认的人掩面大哭。
毕业典礼时，我在手机上发现了一封简讯，这是十天前，我掩面大哭时传来的，只是我一直没有去开过机。

叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。”

叶子的告白：

高中时，喜欢收集叶子，why？因为我觉得，一片叶子要离开它长期依赖的树，好勇敢哩！
高中三年，我和一个男孩子很好，不算男女朋友那种好，是好朋友那种好，但是，在他交第一个女朋友时，我学会了一种不该有的感觉，吃醋，心中的酸，不是一颗柠檬可以比喻，那就像是100颗臭酸的柠檬，酸到不行，他们只在一起两个月，当他们分手，我还得掩饰自己心中强烈的喜悦，但是一个月后，他和另一个女孩子在一起。
我喜欢他，也知道他喜欢我，可是，他为什么总是不追我呢？明明喜欢彼此，为什么不行动？每当他交一个女朋友，我就心痛一次，一次又一次的打击，让我不禁怀疑，是我一厢情愿吗？不爱我，为什么要对我那么好？他对我的好，已经不是普通朋友可以做到。喜欢一个人，好难过，我可以清楚的知道他的喜好，他的习惯，唯独他对我的感觉，我猜不透，难道要我这个女孩子去开口吗？
尽管如此，我还是想在他身边，关心他，陪他，爱他，也许算是一种等待的行为，等待他回来爱我，就像每天晚上等他的电话，等他的简讯，我知道，就算他再忙，也会拨出一些时间给我。这样的等待，陪了我三年，等待是难熬的，是令人想放弃的，但等到的那一刹那，让人第二天会继续等下去。这样的煎熬，这样的痛苦，这样的幸福，这样的矛盾，陪了我三年。
直到三年级下学期，高二一个学弟喜欢上我，每天的热情追求，令我从一开始的拒绝，渐渐愿意挪出我心房的一些位置给他。他像一阵温柔而持久的风，撩拨我这片摇摇欲坠的叶子，到最后，我发现我已经不想只留一点点的位置给这阵风，我知道这阵风，会带我这片伤痕累累的叶子，到更幸福的地方。
于是我离开了树，树只是笑笑，没有挽留。

叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。”

风的告白：

因为我喜欢的女孩子叫叶子，因为她有一棵令她依恋的树，所以我要当一阵风，一阵呵护她的风。
第一次看见她，是高二我转来一个月后的事，个子小小的她坐在球场旁，一双眼凝视着同和我在球场的学长，每天的社团时间，她总会坐在那里，一个人，和朋友，她的眼光依旧凝视着他，当他和女孩子打打闹闹，她的眼中有泪，当他看向她，她的眼中有笑。看她成了我的习惯，就像她爱看他。
有一天她没来，我心中没来由的焦虑与不安，我无法解释那种感觉，除了不安，还是不安，而且那学长竟然也不在。我冲去他们教室，躲在外面，看着学长骂她，她的眼泪，他的离去。
第二天，她依旧坐在场边，看着他，我走过去，对她笑一笑，拿了张纸条给她，她先是惊讶的看着我，然后笑笑地收下。
隔天，她拿着纸条出现在我面前，然后离开。
叶子的心太沉重，风吹不动。”
不是叶子的心太沉重，是叶子根本就不想离开树。”
我回给她这段话后，她渐渐会和我说话，收我的礼物，接我的电话。
我知道她喜欢的不是我，但我还是有毅力一定要让她喜欢上我，四个月内我告白了不下20次，每一次她都转移话题，但我还是不会放弃，我决定要的人，我就一定会给它追过来！
一直到不知道第几次的告白，出了口，虽然知道她一定会又说到别的事，但还是有一丝丝希望她的答应，没想到她都不说话，「??在干嘛？怎么不说话？”我对着话筒说。
我在点头。”
啊？”我不敢相信自己的耳朵。

我在点头！”她大声叫。
我甩掉电话，匆匆披上一件衣服，上了机车，冲去她们家按门铃，当她开门的那一刹那，紧紧抱住她。

叶子的离开,是风的追求还是树的不挽留？

salsa performance

2006-03-22T08:35:00.000-08:00

back~

2006-03-20T07:11:00.000-08:00

haven been blogging for some time. im getting lazier by the weeks. ok some highlights for these few weeks.

watched and finished the korean serial full house. ya i know im kinda slow but i must still say its a very very nice show. the whole show is just so funny and interesting and it was quite touching towards the end without being overly draggy. this is my first korean serial and now i think im hooked...haha. however the new korean movie by song hye kyo wasnt nice at all. i dont think its worthy of the good reviews heaped upon it. so guys dont watch my girl and i if u were intending to...just go rent/buy the vcd if u really have to.

been reading a lot of magazines in the school library during the mid semester tests week, even the female mags. now im kinda obsessed with fashion once again. been shopping with some gers and for myself lately. spent quite a bit of money but it was worth every cent, esp the shades. shall wear them when i have the chance =)

today was the last lesson of salsa. learnt new stuff again and we rehearsed for the performance we're going to do tomorrow for the new salsa class roadshow. the choreography was good, it was manageable and it looked good most importantly. we spent 1 1/2 hour before class and stayed another 1 1/2 hour after class rehearsing. it was kinda tiring, esp the session after class as we had to do it at a non air-conditioned place and we sweated. but when we finally got it, it was so satisfying =) . actually also kinda sad...im glad i've got such fun and spontaneous friends to join the class with me. but i dunno whether we'll end up like my friends, who stopped dancing a while after they finished their course. its quite difficult to get everyone down to union square to dance as we had already seen. hai...just hope i'll be able to get ppl to go down once in a while.

oh ya and chelsea recent loss is really a scam. like wat everyone said, it was really impossible for the officials to see the handball from their perspectives. how can they buckle to pressure from the players. i have seen quite a few chelsea matches and i've got the niggling feeling that referees are secretly against chelsea and this match just had conspiracy written all over it. but still credits to fulham.

alrite im so excited abt the performance tmr. hope nothing goes wrong.

in love with salsa~

2006-02-27T07:44:00.000-08:00

too tired to blog after attachment each day. its really quite tiring to juggle work, leisure activities and the countless reports. did 11 reports this block of attachment, which is quite a lot.

amidst all that, im looking forward to my salsa class every monday. its where i can relax and catch up with good friends. salsa is getting more and more fun with each new move we learnt. went to union square last tue and it was so so fun. we were quite intimidated by the people there at first (they were dancing like pros even though it was beginners' nite) but we got past that and started dancing soon enough. practised our moves and managed to come up some new moves also. one thoroughly embarassing moment happened to me though. my instructor pushed one of his female instructors to me to dance when i havent even warm up to the music. made such a fool of myself. steps were wrong, leads were wrong, clumsy turns, ran out of moves to do. practically every possible mistakes. but at least she was good and managed to complete every turn i led her to do, even when my lead was lousy and mistimed. to those in nyp do let me know if u are interested in learning salsa also. my fren is trying to start another class. it is definately worth your money.

hmm...this is now my study break and im helping to organise a course chalet cum bbq this coming thu. hai even though this is supposed to be a study break, i've got no mood to study. i need a break after the attachment and work over the past weekend. dun care liao...enjoy 1st :p

chingay 2006

2006-02-06T06:57:00.000-08:00

happy lunar new year =)

2006-02-03T08:26:00.000-08:00

hmm...the long weekend was not bad. played mahjong at chun meng's house on fri already. lost quite a bit and became the laughing stock of xiuping. yea rite...keep thinking im lousy...i'll make sure to win your money when ur beginner's luck run out. went to sentosa without fail on new year eve. had one of the best days at the beach recently. finally got back my touch after having a few bad weeks. was in time for my reunion dinner back at home. went to the river hong bao after dinner to see the fireworks and headed to chinatown after that to see if we can pick up any bargains like the previous year. i am quite fond of the taiwan muah chi and was esp looking out for it. we were able to grab one big bag of it for only $2 at ard 3am last year so i was quite disappointed to see that it was still going for $5 at 2am. there was still a big crowd and being the kiasu singaporeans we were, we decided to wait till they are almost going to close before buying. at about 3am we went back in again to see that all the stalls selling the taiwan muah chi had closed! sigh...just not destined to buy that this year.

the first day of new year was spent at my grandma's place as usual. and that is the only place we visited coz i had so few relatives and my aunt we always visit is in korea. gotten less than 10 ang baos this year. and the ang bao money is getting lesser with each year =(

played overnight mahjong again on the 2nd day of the new year. won only a few bucks. went straight to sentosa the next day. sunset bay was so empty that we were able to play many 2 on 2 matches...so happy! went to my friend's house to lao yu sheng in the late evening and ended up playing mahjong again. was so tired on wed when sch reopened. imagine 2 nights without sleeping and 1 night at 4am. skipped patho lecture and went home to sleep.

played blackjack in sch today. haha how audacious can we get. won a bit of money from my classmates =) . being the dealer is good ;) . played mahjong yet again after sch with my classmates and won some money from the gers...hee.

just realised a shocking incident on tuesday. nyp volleyball team lost to the republic poly. and i never ask them for the result coz i assumed they have won. they are like the lousiest team and we lost! wat a shame! luckily i missed that match for my salsa. i swear never to play under that crappy coach again!

memoirs of a bummer?

2006-01-23T23:37:00.000-08:00

watched memoirs of a geisha yesterday. i tink its a nice movie no matter what all u critics who have read the book say. one review also said that it was a mistake to make them speak english but i tink its not tat bad. they managed to converse in english (to appeal to a larger audience) and yet maintain the japanese flavour. and zhang ziyi is so pretty with her "bluish gray" eyes! "i see water in your eyes". haha.

went for my 1st salsa class at the expense of the ivp match. yes i've signed up for salsa class in my sch. only learnt the basic steps, a simple right turn and the musiclogy today but i can foresee that its gonna be so much fun! our instructor already promised to take us to a salsa club after our 3rd lesson. how exciting would tat be?! 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 (dancing away...) :p

sun yanzi in concert!

2006-01-15T07:20:00.000-08:00

woohoo~! went to sun yanzi's concert yesterday. my fren called me on fri and asked me whether i want to watch sun yanzi's concert free. i had something on originally but i cancelled it as anyone in their right mind would. okie make tat anyone who like sun yanzi's songs will. the concert was fantastic. i was going to bring my camera along but as the battery was still charging, i decided not to bring it as i thought the complimentary seats was going to be very far from the stage. boy was i wrong! we got the second most expensive tickets and our view was not bad. after seeing the people in front of us took so many nice photos i really regretted not bringing my own camera. guessed what i did? i asked the gers in front of me to send me their photos...haha. dunno whether they will be so nice to keep their word. i'll be waiting. thanks once again to elaine for the tics and rain for asking =) .

happy new year!

2006-01-08T06:42:00.000-08:00

happy new year everyone! had a wonderful time over the new year day's weekend. went to the 4 day 3 night camp mumbo chalet. played soccer, basketball, ultimate frisbee, blind cat at the playground, cards, sang ktv, rollerblade, ate and basically just relax after a tiring week at raffles hospital.

there's only one incident at the chalet that im quite unhappy about. some of them prepared a sumptous spread for dinner while we were playing cards in the room. after preparing they took lotsa photos without us. i dun even mind them not calling us coz they are proud of their hard work so they wanted to take photos. but when its time to eat they just crowd ard the table to savour their dishes without tinking about the ppl behind them (the ppl playing cards). seeing they are not initiative enough i said to the person in front of me to move a bit coz there are ppl behind and the reply i got was "hey at least i got help to prepare the food hor". i knew we were being discriminated against right from the start coz we didnt help so i retorted that u can tell me earlier and i will be more than willing to buy my own dinner if that's the case. if u are kind enough to prepare something for the group why are u so narrow minded to discriminate against the ppl who dont help and tink that u deserve to eat first? if u are not in the spirit of giving, then dont. im more than glad to prepare or buy my own meal. then wat about those ppl who cant cook? are they going to be discriminated in your group? im also not a fussy eater and i think it is my preference not to go to so much trouble to have one meal. and how is one going to help with 10 ppl ard a so so small kitchen? its just a small incident but i cant stand some of their attitudes whenever they do something for the group.

din stay at the chalet the 2nd night coz i went to work at this mini cooper party. its a invite only party and its typical of those rich and famous's functions. champagnes were served in test tubes on racks and servers were going ard with finger food. there were bars which u can go to for cocktails. ppl going ard taking free polaroids for u with the cars. everyone knows everyone. anyway my job was just to stand there and smile to the guests. quite easy money. managed to get 3 other ppl staying in my area so i din go back to the chalet as planned. shared a cab home from redhill for only 5 bucks...hee.

finally handed in my case study. i din start on it till this week. did on torn shoulder labrum. did quite a lot of research on it. once again i proved to be the ultimate procastinator by leaving it till the last night and doing till 5am in the morning. still im glad i did quite an okay job (i tink) and its finally done.

ivp is coming soon and im not at all excited about it coz i know im not going to start games. my receiving of the ball in indoor court is still damn lousy and the coach is quite biased. so not much chance there. no chance of them going past the 1st round either coz i dun tink they are motivated enough to win.

wat a long post. started out lazy to blog but once im in the mood, im so long winded...haha. another public holiday is coming soon...yea!~!

christmas is in the air~

2005-12-28T08:00:00.000-08:00

had a wonderful christmas! went down to gillian's house for a mumbo gathering as is every christmas eve. they prepared the food while i was only in charge of eating when i came at night after coming down from sentosa :p . received lotsa cards and gifts, majority of which was chocolates. im guilty of giving chocolates myself...had no time to shop or write cards. at least i din just give a piece of ferrero roche to everyone :p . i even bought chocolates for the gift exchange but guess what did i get? a piece of redemption paper from sean. to collect my gift on new year eve coz he havent got time to buy...wth. nevertheless i trust that he will get me something nice from dubai rite *ahem ahem*?

after slacking the whole christmas day afternoon at gillian's house singing karaoke and eating, we went home to change and take a nap (a long one for those of us who were very late) before meeting up at shaw tower. we were supposed to meet at 7pm and people woke up at 7pm...and the guilty parties was once again sean and co. at least they paid a bit for our dinner. we went to this nice turkish restaurant sofra at shaw tower. fantastic food, nice ambience and reasonable prices. there are even couches for u to chill out after ur meal. walked to a tcc nearby for desserts before coming back again for a midnight movie, chronicles of narnia. was told this is a movie with christian themes but at least it was rather subtle except for the resurrection of azlan. i read about this part before i watched the movie so it was kind of a spoiler. anyway took a lot of stupid photos tat day so here it is.

at the turkish restaurant sofra. nice lighting ;)

the couch for chilling out. this is where we waited for them for 1 hour plus.

acting cool~

outside tcc. nice decor they have!

cheeky pose...haha

cool vespa...sean keep trying to destroy our photo by walking to and fro in front of us :( . this is the only nice pic. ps: lazy to edit the pic so just tilt ur head :p

sick~

2005-12-19T03:18:00.000-08:00

my body finally couldnt take it anymore. never had a single day of rest since attachment started. on weekends when most of us are resting, im either training for my comp, working or preparing for my camp. a night with more than 5 hours of sleep was considered a luxury for me. the final spark came on sat when i ate an refrigerated egg tart that's been out in the hot humid weather for a day. i was so hungry after a day at the beach for the ntuc competition(more on tat later) that i ate it. after reaching teck ghee cc for the kids christmas party i ate a proper dinner. however 2 hours later i still felt bloated as though all the food havent been digested. and i was so sleepy and tired as i played mahjong the previous night that i sat in one corner of the room trying to catch a wink. i developed a slight fever after that and felt naseous. finally i could take it no longer and decided to go home. took a cab home and was going to see my doctor until i vomitted everything out into a drain (yucks). felt so much better and went home and slept all the way till sunday evening. didnt go to work today coz i woke up with a throbbing headache and felt dizzy even after eating panadol. halfway on the bus my better judgement told me that i would be better off resting at home right from the start instead of struggling through half a day and then going home after lunch because i couldnt take it. got my mc and rested at home.

the ntuc competition was considered a success. got through to the 2nd round even though we started badly in the 1st match. everything went wrong in the 1st match. guess they havent warmed up yet and the gers was quite nervous ba. both me and jason slept less than 2 hours the previous night and jason still had plenty of alcohol in his blood :p . however as soon as we got into our thing, we were irresistable...haha. my only regret was not being able to play in the 2nd round on sunday. nvm, we'll come back in the next competition stronger :).

really havent been updating much this past month. the thing with attachment is that we are constantly so tired...from waking up so early to travel to the other end of the island...from standing all day long...to rushing reports till late night. this is excluding any other commitments that we have...like accompanying gfs/bfs, cca, and our social lives. ppl have commented i look so much thinner and i have observed that myself...esp after this bout of illness. i have finally wasted my 1 yr plus of hard earned muscle. guess i have to start from scratch all over again.

worked quite a lot during the holidays...but spent almost all my money le. bought a few clothing and a pair of adidas shoes to add to my wardrobe. finally got my black motorola v3 phone le. got it for $268 after paying additional $100 for early upgrade. though not very user friendly i did not regret it as i really loved the design and feel of the phone.

gotta to sleep early and maybe try to complete a bit of my long overdue reports le. and ya i will try to update more frequently. the children camp will be in a separate post later on with the pictures. take care guys...and an advanced merry christmas to all :) .